Deliverance from not worrying.

This is the last of four blogs I wrote soon after my wife was diagnosed with cancer:

I have just spent the small hours of the morning not worrying. I wish I could have earned a dollar for every time I turned over in bed.

Just before dawn I fell asleep. But not before crying out to God for one last time – something along the lines of “help!”

When I woke up there was a phrase throbbing in my mind: “light up our way”. Then I realised that the darkness had lifted. The light of peace and faith had flooded into me while I slept. And God really was going to light up our way. But didn’t those words come from a song? They did - a Matt Redman song on his album 10 000 Reasons! So on my way back from dropping the kids at school, I played it in the car. Loudly! Here are the words:

Light up our way
You bring a brighter future
Light up our lives
Your love is like no other
We are going to shine
Now we are going to shine for You

We won't fear the night
We are looking straight ahead
Never turning back
Counting on Your faithfulness

O this God is our God even till the end
Standing strong over us, time and time again
Even till the end

We've walked through storms and
We have walked through sorrow
Still You won't let them steal away tomorrow
We are going to shine
Now we are going to shine for You

We leave the old behind
It will not define us, no
Yesterday is gone
Now anything is possible

[Chorus x4]
O this God is our God even till the end
Standing strong over us, time and time again
Even till the end

Jesus, You will always be our God
And we won't take our eyes off You
Jesus, You'll forever be the One
We'll have no other God but You
Jesus, You will always be our God
And we won't take our eyes off You
Jesus, You'll forever be the One
We'll have no other God but You

Because of Jesus, I will not fear the night. His love is like no other, so we’ll be looking straight ahead and counting on His faithfulness. God is standing tall over our lives, and we are going to shine for Him. We will shine for Him at the guesthouse, we will shine for Him in the clinic, we will shine for him at chemo, we will shine for Him on the plane – we are going to shine for Him, even till the end.